TAG! I'm it

Thanks to Heather I feel very much in the loop ;-)

4 Jobs You Have Had in Your Life
1. Private tutor (math & reading)
2. Waitress
3. Office Manager at small nonprofit
4. Intern at Sen. Kennedy's office (the Education office specifically)

4 Movies You Would Watch Over and Over
1. Sweet Home Alabama
2. Rudy
3. Never Been Kissed
4. Ocean's Eleven


4 Places You Have Lived
1. Rochester, NH
2. Caribou, ME
3. Boston, MA
4. Washington, DC

4 TV Shows You Love to Watch
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. One Tree Hill
3. Will and Grace
4. Lost

4 Places You Have Been on Vacation
1. Disney World
2. Glacier National Park, Montana
3. London, UK
4. New Orleans, LA

4 Websites You Visit Daily
1. My favorite blogs
2. gmail.com
3. washingtonpost.com
4. our intranet site

4 Favorite Foods
1. Orange Chicken
2. pad thai
3. thanksiving fest (basically, poultry of some sort, mashed potatoes, stuffing and cranberry sauce)
4. BBQ

4 Places You Would Rather Be Right Now
1. Naw'ins
2. Boston (for the beanpot!)
3. Home, sleeping
4. A Bar with my girls (M and J)

I can't ask 4 people to do it themselves, 'cause i dont have four readers, but feel free to feel tagged if you haven't already and you happen to read this ;-)

C$

i can't figure this kid out

DCboy, crazy kid. annoying kid. can't figure him out. he tells me he wants a relationship, wants a girl friend, but makes it obvious he doesn't want me (or at least that's what i'm getting from him) and yet he still freakin' flirts with me like carzy- i feel like i'm in middle school when you ask a boy if he likes you and he says no, and then tries to act all mean but instead just ends up flirting with you over and over again.

Case in point:
-on wednesday night i missed lost, he texted me some stupid comment and i responded that i hadn't had a chance to see it....45 minutes later he calls to give me the update but he "can't talk long 'cause he's gotta go..." or something along those lines. okay, whatever, i appriecated the call and the thought, but the dude NEVER calls.
-last night i get an angel smiley face text message from him. i respond with a "?" wanting to know more and get nothing.
-this afternoon he IM's me "how was last night's game" and we chit chatted and then asked "what are you up to this weekend?" i told him of my plans and then i asked him where he proceeded to tell me how busy he was (partying hard on sat night and dinner party on sunday. and then signed off without as much as a 'goodbye' or 'have a fun weekend'.

it's like he's trying to flirt with me but doesn't go all the way or maybe to him this is flirting. i'm just not sure. WTF?

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but in hockey news, M and i had free tickets last night to see the Caps take on the Blues. Two horrible teams, but one awesome game. they were tied after 3 periods, and went into overtime, with no one scorring......SHOOTOUT! they each were given 3 shots and each team came away with one goal a piece......SUDDEN DEATH SHOOTOUT! the Caps scored and won the game. It is the first time in who knows that they've won 3 games in a row. what an awesome game! plus sweet seats, in the corner, section 114 of the MCI center, about 20 rows from the ice--just far enough up so that we could see the action on both ends of the ice. M and i had a blast! :)

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pub crawl tomorrow with some people that enjoy beer and hockey. i can't wait! i think it'll be a blast! G dawg will be there with his friends (sans pub crawl) so it'll be interesting to see what transpires in the nose bleed seats of the MCI center. one can only hope for good things ;)


anyway, crazy weekend planned, wish me luck for some QT time with my bed :)

C$

quick quick quick

I'm writing this as I run out of the door of the office on my way to a Caps game down at the MCI center. I'll update what I can and will try to finish the rest tomorrow.

1. i already posted about the date between dcboy and i, so i'll head over to the hockey game. it ended up being 6 of us, 5 of which were BU alum and DCboy. It was his first hockey game so it was kind of exciting. nothing too crazy happened now that i look back on it, but it was a fun night.

2. after the hockey game court and i headed to the 9:30 club to see Virginia Colation (VACO) i haven't seen them since Fall '03 live and i LOVE them. they are fab. it was court's first VACO concert and she was a real trooper. we had a blast and each drank 2 long islands-we were 'happy' as all get out! :) we drunk dialed dcboy on the walk back to the metro and made a fool of outselves, but we had a blast!

3. on Jan 9th i got a job offer from company B (need to come up with a blog name for them, but until then they will remain comp. B) i accepted the offer that afternoon before talking to my current bosses. I gave my resignation on the first day at the job of my new boss and he took it kind of hard (understandably).

4. Tuesday morning i walked into the office and was having a meeting with J and M about the program when L knocked on the door, she needed to "speak with me immediately" She then proceeded to offer me more money and a 'promotion' to stay on here at the Pit. I would be leaving the charter program and work for higher education (not exactly what i wanted to be doing). I was flattered by the offer and told them that i would seriously consider it--which i did. I called Company B to let them know that i was made an offer and was thinking it over and if they'd be willing to come back with a different offer (the Pit offered me 2K more than what company B was offering, which was almost 3K more than what i currently make). They said that they'd have to go through the proper channels, but that they'd see what they could do.

5. wednesday morning i recieved a call from company B for an offer of $1500 more than the orginal offer, but $500 less than what the Pit was offering to keep me around. i accepted the position and told the Pit that, although i was flattered, i needed to move on and was so excited for my new position.

6. that night, i went to see Wicked at the Kennedy Center- it was a BU alum event and it was a blast! we got to meet the guy that plays the Wizard and he had some really cool things to say about the play vs the book.

7. work was crazy ALLL week, trying to make lists of everything that i do so that whomever they hire to replace me will have some idea of what they need to get done ASAP. plus, meeting with the new boss J day after day was annoying- he's a stubborn jerk who knows nothing about our program or what we do or even what we offer to schools, how fusterating!

8. Friday the 13th we went to Brokeback Mountain (aka the gay cowboy movie) it was GREAT! I encourage EVERYONE to go see it--it's a story about love and not about cowboys or about gay love, just love. it's beautiful. a must see.

9. My riend Couort moved to georgetown on saturday so i helped her with all that--surprisingly it was a very quick move and we were done around 4. we then headed up to Ikea to check things out, it was my first time and she popped my ikea cherry ;-) GOOD STUFF MAN!

10. I worked on Sunday at job #2, normal crap.

11. All this week i am trying to wrap things up and get my desk/office cleaned out. it sucks because i'm going out every night and don't want to bring bags of crap home but need to because that's what i've got here. looks like i'm bringing a back of schools to the caps game tonight!

12. i'm going on a pub crawl/caps game thing on saturday with some more bu alum (see a pattern!?) and g-dawg is going to the game as well so yay for seeing him!

13. next monday the bu alum is gonig to see the caps vs/ the bruins and then playing broomball on the ice of the MCI center- i can't wait! gdawg is coming to the game/broomball and all the girls are excited to finally meet him, so am i! :)

update on dcboy-
well he's going to austrialia in 2006/07 for an extended period of time. he said that i could come visit, but obvisouly he isn't think about a future with me. that's cool. it's all good, as long as we stay friends. although he did call me last night to give me an update on the Lost episode that i missed due to drinking last night. i thought it was very sweet since it was unsolicited and NEVER usually happens. I can't think of ANY time in which he's called me for some reason other than returning a call--he usually texts me so a call is a big deal--at least in my book.

phd boy-we were supppsed to do pub quiz last week but i cancelled on him to go to the hockey game with some girls. i don't really like him that much and don't erally want to spend 2+ hours having to make small talk but am embarassed to introduce him to my friends, so maybe he'll get the hint ... i'm mean :(

i think that's it in a nutshell. i'm sure that i'm missing a lot but it'll come to me :)

c$

oh and my cuz H and her kids and hubby are headed down soon, WOOHOO :)

sorry, please forgive!

It's been very, VERY crazy over in C$ world. The Pit has been keeping me busy and I haven't had a chance to do anything but what is immediate.

I will update.

It does include a 'date' with DCboy (if I haven't already posted about it, I can't remember!), a hockey game with DCboy and BU alum, a great concert, a job offer, another job offer, negotiation for salary, a new boss, resignation, fighting, Wicked, friends and BU alum. lots of things to talk about and share with y'all. (all one of you!) but I will do it, and it'll be good :)

C$

List lists lists!

I guess this is my new years resolutions post, lots of things that i want to really try and do, but know, deep down that i won't. BUT maybe, just maybe, if i put them up there i'll try a bit harder and maybe, just maybe stick to them..
I'm copying this list from Aunt Pearl, although i'm adding a lot of mine, but like myself, auntie likes to make lots of lists instead of actually doing things, so feel that we are kindred spirits and I can steal without feeling bad about it.

SO here goes, C$'s list of things for 2006

My 2006 List of TO-DOs and TO-DON'Ts

Money Things

• Continue to bring lunch to work every day.
• Search for deals and go shopping only when I need to.
• limit my at-work spending to under $10 a week (snacks, sodas, etc)
• continue to depoist money that would have been paid towards students loans into high yielding savings account.
• pay off my AMEX each month so it doesn't pile up and I can continue to get points for free trips.
• pay off as much of my Citi credit card as possible each month.

"I'm now a size ___?"

• go back to only allowing myself one soda a day.
• drink more water.
• eat less pasta and more lean protein.
• start working out again (weights and cardo)
• stick to low-fat treats that are just as tasty as normal (hello smart pop mini bags!)
• eat more, smaller meals during the day.
• don't eat anything large after 8:30 pm
• walk the <1>

Practial Things:

• Find a new job
• be on time to things. I don't have to be early, just there time.
• go to bed by 10, up by 6:30-7 am
• keep my home clean so that i don't have to take a weekend out of my busy schedule just to clean.
• get organized--find a system that works for me.
• potentially quit job #2 or at least cut down to one day a week. no more working 7 days a week.

Boys and Friends

• continue to be involved in alum things.
• avoid turning down opportunities to meet people, even if i'm tired or uninterested. what will it hurt to go out and find out i don't like something instead of just sitting at home wondering.
• try to get in with DCboy's group--he's leaving in 4 months and his roommate seems really cool as well as their mutual friends. attempt to fit in and make some new friends along the way.
• continue to do the online dating thing--it can't hurt but don't limit myself to only online. be brave and bold, as some guys out.
• give every guy at least a second chance.
• do not, repeat, DO NOT compare anyone to DCboy.
• give g-dawg a kiss on the cheek.
• introduce DCboy and Gdawg to get DCboy's opinion of my chances with G.
• join a kickball league.

Big plans (job and school related):

• if company B offers me a position next week, and the money is more than the Pit, take the job.
• continue to take classes at Strayer or transfer to GW distance in Alexandria.
• take at least one class a semester (company A offers tutition reimbursement)
• start studying for the LSAT's. Plan on taking the Oct test.
• Depending on test scores, determine where to apply. If scores are good, look at staying in DC for another 3-4 years, apply to a few Northeast schools (mostly Harvard, BC, NYU, Columbia, etc) and to some schools out west (specifically LA/orange county area or in Seattle). If scores are no so good, but still good enough to get in, attend Stetson University for free. (will apply there no matter what the test scores are). Will also apply to some lower tier law schools just to see where I get in.
• if i get into a school in DC, talk to company A about staying on and how much the tutition reimbursement would be/if my hours could get cut back, etc. If it doesn't work out, quit company A to go full time and get a part time job to pay some bills, but basically live on student loans.
• If i move to florida, i will be dependent on my father to stay in a job for at least 3 years. I won't live with him, but will expect him to step it up, afterall he contributed nothing to my undergraduate degree. nothing. at all. zero. (and i went to one of the most expensive private schools in the nation

i think that's all, but i will mostly like update soon.

Keep me straight!

C$

only in DC, only in DC

As quoted in today's Metro Express:

"There is a certain unwritten code in Washington, among the underworld and the hustlers and these others guys that I am their friend," [Marion] Barry said.

Marion Berry, former DC major and (former?) heroin addict and now current Ward 8 Council Member.

You are a friend of the underworld Mr. Barry? Does anyone see what is wrong with that statement? And why would Ward 8, who is full of huslters, thugs and the like, who cry out for help in reducing crime, increasing education and increasing police presence ELECT someone who is a 'friend of the underworld?"


things that make you go hmmmmmmm

wish me luck

after that last posting about my lack of ability with men, i'm posting about men. i'm stupid. haha

i'm going on a 'date' with DCboy tomorrow. i'm not sure if it's a date or not to him, but i'm taking it as such. we had planned to go to a movie last night after i landed but both of us agreed that we were too tired (him-london/paris jetlag and me boston/alcohol induced jetlag) and agreed to do something this week. We decided to go to the postsecret exhibit in georgetown-we're both obessed with the site and then to the movies and as he put it "then get a drink or 3". i'm not sure how it'll all work out but i'm hoping we have a good time. we seem to enjoy each other's company and i need more friends that's for sure--but what sucks is that come may, i'm going to be hurting when he moves west, but that's 5 months away....

i've also got to call JP about setting up a time to catch up. I emailed him prior to leaving for christmas and hadn't heard from him for almost 2 weeks. I thought he was blowing me off but he called twice on Jan 1 to set up a time for us to hang out. I told him i'd call him once i got back into the District and had a chance to look at my schedule.

i'm also talking to this kid E, whom i met online. He's from New Brunswick and spent a lot of time while growing up in Caribou and his father even graduated from CHS (talk about a fuckin' small world!) we talked last night for the first time and it went smoothly. we're both in town for the month, so maybe we'll get togehter.

I emailed the christian (now called G-dawg) about getting together when he gets back. i really want DCboy to meet him and assess the situation--maybe he can tell me if Gdawg is actually into me or just a friend...we'll see.

i'm also planning on seeing DCboy on friday for a Caps hockey game. it looks like a bunch of us are getting together so i think it'll be fun. i'll be leaving the game early so that i can head to the 9:30 club to catch Virginia Coalition(!!) and maybe catch up with a guy that i met at the kegs and kookies party pre-christmas. but i've gotta call that guy to see if he's going or not...nerve wracking!

anyway, wish me luck with all this crap, i'm going to need it.

C$

Christmas Review

Well, I am back from my 'vacation' and thought it'd best to update properly.

I headed to Florida for christmas to spend with my Dad and stepmom Mo. I spent 5 days there and, honestly, have never been so bored in my life. I didn't quite feel like a guest nor family member. I couldn't (or wasn't allowed) to help out for the christmas prep work but also didn't feel right just sitting there doing nothing (well knitting). It had been 2 years since i had seen my dad and almost 4 years since I had been in florida and things hadn't changed much since. They still don't have their "family picture' wall up, but every other wall is filled with crap. There isn't one picture of me in their house except for the pictures that my dad has on his bureau in their room, the same pictures he's had for 15 or so years. I thought that was strange. They did, however have pictures of Mo's grandchildren. She has 3 (from 2 sons) and they had small pictures of 2 of the kids on one of the bookshelves. They were tiny and i would have never noticed if i hadn't been looking for pictures. I found it strange that there were NO pictures of family or of fun times or anything. All the things on the walls were 'art' or framed professional photographs of random things. How could i be his daughter when my apt is FULL of pictures. I don't have room on my walls for any more, my fridge is covered with snapshots and i've got stuff on every shelf of my bookshelves. --how not to feel like part of the family.

christmas day was really low key, i went to church alone because neither of them are practicing anything. they believe in something, but i'm not sure there is a 'church' for that. on my way home i made all of my calls to friends and family wishing merry christmas and all that good crap. i missed my mom. it was the first christmas ever, EVER, that we weren't together. Growing up, i'd spend christmas with the Pelletier family and then spend new years with the Kelly family. That was the way it was and it worked perfectly. I got two christmas' SCORE!But now that we don't live near any large group of the Pelletier family and the Kelly family hasn't really gotten together for 5 or so years for any holiday, all holidays were spent with my mom. that was normal and what i wanted, but this year i decided that it'd be nice to head down to FLA and be a good daughter.

My father doesn't know how to interact with me. he doesn't know if he should treat me like a friend, a family member, a stranger or something else. He doesn't really understand me (i know we all say our parents don't understand us, but he really doesn't understand me) and he honestly doesn't know me. I've never been able to be up front and honest with him regarding my feelings toward him and i sort of regret that now. But i feel like it's too late. I'm done with my formitative yeras, he can't help me become someone or shape my future--he has no idea what i want out of life, what makes me happy or what makes me sad.

He doesn't realize that he's basically fucked me up for life. i dont know how to interact with men because of my lack of a relationship with him. i am genuinely scared and fearful for the day when I get married and move in with my husband. I've never lived with a man and have no concept of what it's like to do so. I had hoped to have a male roommate between highschool and marriage, and that's still a possibility, but highly unlikely. I think that's why i fall so hard for guys that I like. I want them to fill a void in me left by my lack of a normal relationship with a male.

i often worry about my inability to have a normal relationship with anyone now because of what happened when i was younger. I fear that i'll never find what i'm looking for and will end up alone. or that i'll have to settle for fear of being along. it seems that i'm always attracted to older men, wonder why? hah i'm looking for a father figure and a lover in one man--almost impossible, if not unhealthy as well. i want someone that'll take care of me but will let me do things on my own so that i can learn- sounds just like a father role.

i dont know. maybe i'm just to sensitive to it all. i hate that i don't have a relationship with my father but am too lazy to do anything about it. and god knows he won't.

C$

an update

is COMING! i promise! sorry heather! :) I was in FLA with dad and maureen, then came back to DC for a quick turn around and headed north to boston. I'll update with all the crazy stuff soon, just trying to get back into the swing of work again.

until then
C$