so here we are...

The thursday of a short week and I can't wait for Friday...although that just means, for me, 2 more days of work at a different place and then back here, putting my nose to the grindstone.

Good news though, I got a raise today. No promotion (as in a title change, although i might talk to them next week about that) but at least more money. they claim that they really apprieciate me and hope that i stay here forever...little do they know that i spend my days looking for new jobs (and posting on here) with work computers/internet. If i could find a job that i was semi-interested in and paid half decently, i'd take it in a heart beat. AND yet i feel some sort of loyalty to this group and want our program to do well..i'm just not sure what exactly i should think/feel/do.

but a raise is a raise. so i'm excited about that...maybe that means i'll be able to take a trip soon....hmmm i wonder if Vegas is still an option with S.

so DC boy and i talked last week regarding the long weekend, he was headed to Seattle for some QT time with mom but promised to buy me a drink as a form of repayment for the movie ticket i wasted on him. i haven't talk to him since (and he hasn't been online) and am a bit worried. only because he does all that traveling and i'm always worry about him when i know he's out and about. even though i love/hate him, i dont want him to die...haha...and calling him is out of the question, i dont want him to know that i worry about him and am one of those girls, but DAMN why can't we just give it a shot--an honest attempt, none of this half-assed crap. and if we try and it doesn't work then that's fine and i'll be able to move on, but without knowing if it could work, i am always wondering "what if?" and i hate that about myself. why can't i just let things be?

the bosses interviewed someone to be our boss, i'm worried that they are going to hire her without interviewing anyone else. i hate that about this place--it's all about who you know and not what yu know. this woman, her father is friends with everyone here and every knows him and her mom, but she's retarded. it just pisses me off because i am a prime example of what can happen when you actually look outside your "family" for a hire! everyone else here has been hired b/c they know someone and not really based on their expertise or knowledge, but because of what their last name is....ARHGHAG it pisses me off royally.

anyway, back to work....

C$